What shall be my fate?

In an hour or 2, I will be able to know my results to determine whether I'm a graduate and what my class of honours to be.


I'm damn nervous when I received SMS from Em this afternoon and I'm having my training Induction course at Tampines Branch. My heart was like pumping hard and my colleagues gotta comfort me.

I mean its already fated. I just want to know what's the outcome? I don't wanna waste another year!

Oh god!

Help me!!!

Just a summary

I can only give a small summary of what I did last weekends...

18/8
My classmate cum colleague then, KIT (she's no longer working there) gave me a Helllo Kitty Mirror.

Went to meet my friends from Japan.... after work.... tired! Tsukare! Was talking on the phone in my office... I can't really converse well in Jap and my colleagues heard me... duhz.... she knows lor! So taught me a sentence to tell my Jap friend to wait for me at the lobby.... then told me how to get to New Park Hotel which I never heard of it in my entire life!

So ULU!

Brought Jap friend to orchard to buy CDS... I felt like a rich taitai... (actually it's my friend who is the rich taitai!) Went into the CD store and ask for 8 CDS! Even the sales person was shocked! They thought I'm a Japanese.... duhz... and I replied that my friend is... I wasn't! Brought her to eat the local delights! Cha Kway Tiao and Fried Hokkien Prawn Mee!

After that, when its time to go home... she passed me a present which at 1st I thought it's chocolate! Cos it's nicely wrapped with a big ribbon with GOD DIVA written on it. But haha... it's actually a perfume from JAPAN! The words on it are all Japanese! I can't decipher whats that.

Back home, it's almost 12!
My parents bought me a cake!
And happily (or sadly?cos I'm getting another year older) blew the candles. Cut the cake.

19/8
Happy Birthday to ME!
Spending my day for him.
No presents... no flowers.... nothing! But just Happy Birthday which came form his mouth.
Lotsa SMSes from friends.... Lotsa presents from Jap friends.

20/8
PC down! Can't upload my pictures so no more memory to film down pictures/ videos of my lover. So I sang along with him! So shy when he looked at me.... always trying to divert my attention to my friends. But at least he acknowledge me... heh heh heh.

21/8
Back to Office. My supervisor passed me a box of chocolates which looks EX! Wooh! So nice of her.... I barely work for like 2 weeks? Touched....^.^

To summarise... I do hope he can come again for his gai ban! Although after the events, there are so many unhappy incidents which may caused distress to my lover.... I do hope he can withstand all these nonsense! All the best in his concert in Shanghai!

Finally... I'm back!

PC was down earlier! Spent a sum to get it repair... feel a pinch man!

Alright... what's in my last entry?

Ok...

I did saw my Lover and he wished me a Happy Birthday... tho' I thought a present would be better?! Ha.... he's not feeling well lah... so sad.... and I'm not so demanding. Spending my day with him is the greatest present.

We did take a picture... but I guess Deb (a friend of mine) is right... we need to photoshop! Haiz... and what else.... I couldn't send him off like what I used to do in my school days.... so the day before.... after his event, I gave him a small satchet of Strepsils! haha... which is like costs less than a dollar?! Ok I'm cheap skate! LOL.... What's better than my love for him? LOL.......!!!!! I thought he wouldn't want it... but in fact he took it! Touched my hand somemore! But his hand really like TOFU lor! Not that I'm eating his TOFU ok!?

And well.... glad that he actually remembers me... sniff.... but I wondered how can he recognise me??? I mean.... it's quite impossible leh! but that's what he said to everyone in J8! LOL... At that point of time... wished to be hidden in a hole.

Ok.... I shall post my entry about meeting up with jap friends and blah blah blah....

All By Myself

Now blogging in the office!

No one is around!

Duhz... they went buy kopi... and I don't drink those kopi seeling outside except Starbucks or Coffee bean kopi!

Sian Sian leh....

Yesterday OT till now I'm like a zombie!

Hope today NO OT!

At least I can rest for 1 day... had been busy since the last weekend!

This coming weekend is another busy one!

Lover is coming today... I guess he's now landed in Singapore!Breathing in the same air as me... Haha...


I think I'm growing older and older... Physically and mentally...


Now I know what's the real working life would be~

What should I do next?

I'm still in a daze~

Ahhh.... give me work!

Tiring week!

Oh... time really flies! I thought it's just a brand new start of a week... but look! 3 to 4 more days I will be seeing my lover!!! And he's celebrating my birthday! Actual day somemore! Love him to bits.... its the 1st time! Oh! Gotta make it a historic moment! LOL!


Ok.... I'm mad!(Siao~)

Enough of my craps....


No photos for now... cos Ms Thia have not send me the pictures for yesterday's gathering with my Pre-Uni 1 GP teacher.

I guess we really aged alot! Imagine that was how many years ago.... duh....

Chat till quite late.... about 9.45pm.

Thought of taking MRT back.... but end up took Junhao's car home... so reach home within 10 mins.... heh... anyway.... was he a reckless driver??? hmmm.... better not to comment anything. Or else next time I will never got the chance to take free ride liao~ LOL

Though I'm already so exhausted.... made an earring!

Will post it someday~ Now.... gotta go to do other things liao~

Busy me!

Life still goes on

No matter what happens at work... life still goes on~ I don't really understand why they paid me for doing nothing.... (Please let me shout out a bit.... though I know I had been saying the same few lines over and over again!)

Alright! Nevermind!

Haha... I actually surf the internet and log on to web MSN today... chatted with a few friends... and went on to tabulate my shopping directory list for my 2nd project. And of course printed it out without fears. Yay!

It's friday!!! Woohoo! Weekends is really what I want! I can do my own things! Yippee! Will be a busy weekend though...

Shall update on my 2nd project and my gathering with my home tutor in Pre-Uni as she's going for further studies.

For now I gotta do something else~

Ciao~

1st project- Earrings!

It's National Day.... HOLIDAY!

Ha! I made my very 1st attempt of DIY earrings!

A very easy project! Cute right? But it's really very simple... not much achievement.

I made another one... but who knows... I got the colour combi wrong! So I gotta wait till weekends to get the rest of the colour combi.... and it's a complicated one!

Heh... I can be talented too~

Oh... I bought 3 mouse pads cum photo frames at only $4! 2 for myself and 1 for my bro.

My Melody! Now is my fave!

Of course Hello Kitty!

And for bro~ Doraemon!

Cute right? Munkit (my SIM friend cum colleague) commented that she couldn't stop me from spending $... LOL... cos I asked her to stop my spending.

Okay... just surf the net for more info in getting cheap accessories and beads... going on weekends! Yay! (spend $$$ again....tsk!)

Still thinking (-_-)"

Yay! Tomorrow is a HOLIDAY!

Happy National Day!

I should be happy today... but haiz....

This morning is still okay... cos' there's still things for me to do. A colleague asked me to photocopy a file of documents! Yes... it's ALOT! (A sudden feel of being a temp) But ok... I did it. It's better to sit at my desk doing nothing but staring into space~ (U know what I mean?)

During lunch time, I bought 2 shirts!(Tho yesterday I bought 2 at G2000 because they are having sales. Shopping! Yay!) The ones I bought at G2000 costs 23 each while today's shopping only costs 10 each!!!! WOW! Quality wise not bad! (I can imagine what's my mama reaction when she opened my wardrobe! Cos' last time we used to share the same wardrobe and now I got my own! LOL!)

Alright enough of the happy things....

If you don't know me well... you will never know that I'm that sort of person where I simply can't stand working in a very slack environment, doing nothing, no recognition....and blah blah blah! Though I can surf internet, but I gotta do it discreetly. The boss will walk behind me at anytime cos' his desk is facing at my back.

You may think that it's good being paid by doing nothing... but I think otherwise! I do not have the job satisfaction! I feel like I'm not of use.

After lunch, I got to chat with a colleague who seldom talks, always quietly doing her work. So was rather surprised that she came over and have a small chat. Chatting about where she grad from, work how long... and actually she had seen me b4!!! At the interview or signing of appointment letter... I dunno. I can't remember seeing her. Yup... so I told her if there's anything that I can help, PLEASE pass the work to me! I'm VERY FREE!

This girl is very nice! When she sees me feeling uneasy (uneasy because I got nothing to do), she will try to find something for me. Today, when I signalled to her that I'm SUPER FREE, she very cute, scratched her head then find things for me to do.

Yes! She indeed got me alot of things to do and I'm very very very happy and satisfied! But who knows....

There'll be a restructuring and shifting going on very soon. And I heard that there are new staff coming too! Our team is like so many people already! Even those who came b4 me were sitting at a small round coffee table and its like 2 people squeezing in 1 table, with 2 lap tops on it. There're so many wires attached to the LAN point and lap tops... walking around is already very difficult! Moreover over my side, there're 2 pregnant ladies!Tsk! I'm lucky that I got a desk of my own.(BUT! haiz...read on)

The IT lady came and ask me where I'll be sitting if the new staff came in. I'm blur! I know nothing! I only came in for just a mere 8 days!(8 days every week~~~) What the??? And I overheard that there'll be 3 new staff!!!

Where got seats for them???

Wah lau! Want me to give up my seat? Tsk! So unfair!

They are still discussing about it.... I dunno... the VP say until like very easy... what connect the LAN point here and there.... duhz..... I mean if you know u are hiring so many people, u got to make sure that there are enough work stations for the staff! And not that contract staff or temp staff got no tables! Shouldn't all be treated the SAME?

I dunno!

I'm in NO position to suggest or what.

I shall wait for their instruction.

There's this colleague sitting beside me. She wanted to change her PC with me (I dunno why). She wasted my time and I couldn't finish the work tasked by another colleague. Feel so paiseh... cos' I asked for the work and yet I couldn't finish! But she knew the reason lah. Oh well... the reason is that the shifting of PCs! They got to extract her docs in her PC and put into mine... while mine .... I guess all that I'd saved is all gone! What angered me is that they did not even ask me if I have any saved docs.

It's already time to knock off and I'm full of anger! I couldn't bother to log in again to reset my email and check other stuff. But merely shut down my PC and went off! I was super angry! Angry because why I'm treated like that? Just because I'm not a perm staff? Oh gosh! The world had never been fair before. Few days earlier, I was still thinking that the staff there are ok as they always treat me eat food and snacks. But now did I realised that they are so disorganised and bo chap!

I always tell myself to observe for a few days and see how it goes, hoping for improvements. Well sometimes it does gives me hope that I can do my work happily there... but sometimes I just feel not a part of my team.I feel that I'm not being trusted.

Nobody will understand how I feel....

Meanwhile, I will start looking for better jobs, while KIV on this job... if no prospect.... I guess it's better for me to leave than staying being an useless employee there. I shouldn't be wasting my talents right? ^.^

Ha!

Feel real depressed on my way home while ranting about it to my friend.

Just now checked my email, and it brightens me again.

I love her illustrations! I bought the whole series of her illustration books! So I wrote an email to her and this is what she replied to me. With a cute picture also! http://hokusoem.com/shay-shay805.html

There's 20% discount till thurs at Kino... wanted to buy the latest issue of illustration books but my buddies are going to give me Kino vouchers as my birthday gift. So I think I shall wait for the vouchers instead. Tho' I thought of having a 16 inches BIG Pink Torto Stuff Toy from Action City where my mama, me and bro saw! So huggable!!!

I want the pink one!

Alrights... enough of rantings...

HOPE THAT THE REST OF THE MONTH WOULD BE BETTER FOR ME!

Shopping and eating

Mama brought me and bro to eat Sakae Sushi today! Yummy!!! Of course not paid by me~ hehehe~ Then we went shopping!

Came to a beads shop! Wooh! Nowadays me n Mama very INTO DIY accessories! We bought some supplies and happily imagine what we will do out of them!

Just now surf some webbies for ideas... actually while choosing the beads, I roughly have an idea of what kind of earrings to make. I want to make 2 as my first project!!! Saw some real nice ones on the webs...

I wonder CAN I MAKE IT???

I THINK I CAN!

YES! I CAN!

Hahaha....

Oh tmr gotta work again! Sianz....

BUT





Wednesday is a HOLIDAY!!!!

So I can make my earrings on that day! LOLz....

Ok I must go sleep now.... cos tomorrow got to make my staff badge! Must take photo! So must look nice in my picture! Haha! Hmmm saw my colleague's one... orange background...errrrrr..... I thought of wearing PINK! But it doesn't go well with orange.... I guess I wear baby blue! LOL...

I'm so bored!

So bored! But a good day for rest! Online for whole day! Yeah!



Anyone from SP??? Who got this ticket??? Please give me! I want to go!!!

4th day of work

Yes... work is coming in.... I'm glad! Hope I can still manage.... heh.... gotta memorise alot of things... but happy cos finally got things to do.... time easier to pass....

Saw my ex supervisor Li Chern on Wed (my 2nd day of work) and lunch with her, Miles (an ex colleague), and Lester ( ex colleague for UAT). So pai seh that Li Chern actually treat us for lunch. We went to a Korean restaurant at somewhere near Circular Road. I know there's a TCC... then near Eski bar also.... where there's alot of pictures of Korean idols like Bae Yong Jun ,Jang Dong Gun... etc. When we went in... there's a strong smell of food, like the smell in a food court. Maybe its the BBQ smell. But I guess I'm immersed in the smell. I guess I need to spray some perfume when I got back into the office. (Luckily I always brought a handy bottled perfume with me)

We girls ordered a bowl of mixed rice with vege, meat, and other 'japalang' ingredients. The guys ordered something like Teppanyaki Beef and rice.
I never eat Korean meal before! I was rather fascinated with the silver metal chopsticks and spoon. 1st we were served with the side dishes which I thought they were for the guys. I like the Kimchi!!! Never thought that Kimchi can be so nice! I like to eat ikan billis and peanuts too! Li Chern said the potato shreds is tasty... hmmm... tastes weird to me.... I think it's raw!

We chatted while eating (tho' its unhealthy... indigestion.) We laughed at the guys cos' they can't hold their chopsticks properly.... or rather in the right way! Talk about the ex colleagues... and of course the famous poem created by the great poet- LiChern.

Duhz.... I thought I had blogged it but I can't find it in the archives... think that time I was too tired after work!

Kaili.... do u still remember? If U do please leave in the comments or tag board. TQ

Btw... I overheard that my team is shifting to another level. Die! Means I'm becoming coolie! Got to pack stuff to shift down. I hope I still have my own table! At least for another 3 months....

*Wishful thoughts*After that, I hope that I can have a transfer... and a raise in pay cos' by that time I should get my degree for sure.( Now I'm still considered as A level holder) Hope to meet more nicer people....

End of the year... go short trip. Next year I want to go TAIWAN! Kaili! Must go ok!? Ask Yiqiu see if she wants to join us?!

I don't mind to go in 2 or 3s! Lesser people better I guess! Remember we got the map! Hahaha... Alright... I think too far liao!

Rest time~ or rather MSN'ing time~

Working is so 'easy'!

Y is it so 'easy'? Cos being paid for sitting there do nothing!


GOOD?


Imagine yourself in an environment that everyone is busy doing their work except you! The reason why is that they don't know what to give you to work on! But why in the 1st place that they want to take you in when they having nothing for you to do??? I don't understand! Isn't they supposed to have plan out what to be done in the 1st place? Don't they have a target or something like that as it's a project? I don't understand either.


Perhaps they want me to adapt to the environment 1st. Perhaps...

But I feel I'm useless there! It's the same old feelings when I worked 3 days 2 years ago at the other building. That was worse I must admit. At least for now, I'm a contract staff and having my own seat.

I still feel uneasy!

I have to observe for few more days to ascertain what I'm looking for. Should I just endure? Ha... People want to leave because of heavy workload... for me because no work load. Haiz.... strange enough!

Let me think about it.