Meetings & meetings

I'm currently in the midst of preparing for tomorrow's meeting. I don't know what I'm going to say tomorrow. Well.... 2 meetings in a day.... how good will it be? I'm getting busier each day, more tired, more complaints (haha), but not more $.-_-"



Should I say I'm in the progress of becoming a real working adult? If that's the case... sad! Recently when I'm on my way to work... in MRT... I will start day-dreaming... eh.... not really day dream lah... but to 'talk' to myself. I wondered if my life will be going to filled up with work, meetings, presentations etc? Yes, I might get promotion but now I already can feel the tension, the stress level, and the stuff that you see in dramas. I'm not being drama ma-ma... but it's kinda scary to see yourself going to work, haven't even heat up the seat, and phone starts ringing. Having to prepare for numerous of meetings with big bosses, having to work alone and no one is going to help you in any ways.... *scary*



Well... afterall its my 'baby'~ its really difficult to 'raise' him up. I'm glad to have my current team leader to chat with these matters. Coz I'm now doing double job scopes, and I really need her to know that I couldn't cope that much. Yes, she's understanding and shared with me about how she felt for this year's promotion.... erm... she didn't get promoted. Ha... and she was saying I should make full use of this opportunity and we will be promoted together next year. Duhz.... saying is easy, doing is hard. I seriously think that this road is not easy to walk through. Anyway, 1 funny thing that she told me is that she said 1 er ren bang member is very sad when she heard I'm leaving this team. Muahahaha.... I couldn't help but burst out laughing. Never know that someone could be that fake. I think she will be happy lah... at least no one will fight for the assistant team leader. nah... as if I want.



k lah... for now must work hard, earn more $ and 'see' the world. I just hope to be appreciated for what I have done. Today, there's this 3rd RM praising me to be the BEST! Ha.... he's very appreciative. I haven't told him that I'm leaving soon... ooppsss... I guess he will whine man.



Kz.... back in preparing for tomorrow meetings.... ahhhhhh.... what am I going to say?

Day trip to Changi Airport

Yesterday is Good Friday..... hee.... holiday.

Well, 反正 got nothing to do at home, so I went to Changi Airport with my mum and granny to look around.

We went to T3 1st as its only like 2 mths old.... haha guess what I saw there??? Awwww... my childhood favourite! Tweety Bird!!! Along with Bugs Bunny and Daffy Duck.... they were the baby series kind.... hahaha Sooooo Cute! And I managed to take a photo of them!

Then we walked around, see see and look look. We had our lunch at Kopi which is a foodcourt... hmmm food wise ok lah.... cos we can't find 店小二 restaurant. Arrggg... which later we found its at level 3. Raaaffff!

After that we went to Yat Kun eat roti and drink kopi, and we head off to T1.

We saw a lot of ABNN there..... all the 黑色毛衣 (haha ABNN & 黑色毛衣 are discriminating nicks given by 1 of my vocal classmate, he's a funny boy...) They are damn rich can?! they all bought 1 LCD TV 42 inches one hor.... each had 1 hor! Wah..... and they don't look rich to me.

After that we go watch AEROPLANES.... haha and I sang the Chit Ba Ban song (Hokkien song) to my mum and she laughed until pengz... cos this song is like saying " If I got 100 million, I want to sit on plane, tour around the world, buy car, buy house...etc" Well super funny song!

Back to T2... we found 三盅两件 restaurant. My mama highly recommend that for dinner tho' we already bit full with all the yat kun roti... haha.... Wah... the samsui chicken super nice!!! Personally I don't like ginger! But wah...... the samsui chicken, combine with minced ginger, slices of cucumber, and wrapped with vegetables( I don't know what vege is tat) SUPER HEAVENLY GOOD! And we spent like $42 only.... and yea... I paid for that. But worth it lah!

And so we ended our day trip. I still act as if I'm the tour guide for the day, speaking in good Mandarin. Ahahaha..... well... practising for my trip mah...

Yea Yea I'm excited about my trip in 2 weeks time!!! It's really a time to relax man! Cos seriously I think my life will be SO hectic from next month onwards. I must pamper myself and learn how to LOVE myself and enjoy life~ hahaha.... so unlike me. Anyway, found on SIA website that there are new movies!!! Yea.... and me plus my mum's colleague will be going to start our movie marathon!!!

Here are my choices for my 5 hours flight. 3 movies to and another 3 movies back to Singapore. Wheeeeee~~~~ And the day of departure I'm gonna sleep until I'm able to endure the sleepless night on flight, cos i'm taking the mid night flight.

Wah... these are the movies that I wanted to watch badly!

Can't wait till that day~~ *dreaming*

Blink blink 2 weeks will soon arrive!

New team + new challenge = no time

Had a super tiring week~ and yeah tgif! And its a HOLIDAY!

Had been doing OTs since Monday... arrrgggg..... and now I'm doing double job scopes - current team & new team. Phone starts ringing every 5 mins and a lot of administrative work to be done alone... plus technical stuff like IT... arrrgggg I'm an IT idiot... and so gotta make 'good friends' with the IT side. I really can't imagine in a month's time, I will be working alone! Sometimes, I don't really like to be individualistic. However, this minimises the risk of having internal conflicts.

Yesterday is the worst day of the week. Basically I had to answer both office phone and mobile phone. Gotta talk for the whole morning and thru lunch hours (i gotta lunch in). And given that I'm already that sick, yet I gotta to talk. If in the past, given my current state, I will not be going to work.... hee.... MC lor. But now I'm responsible for running test for new team and gotta understand what the hell the whole thing is going thru, I need to go to work. ARggggg!

I'm glad that I have given this opportunity to liaise with people from a number of departments. And also good souls who rendered their help to me willingly. I must praise myself too to be able to stay strong and get the things done. (Well, yesterday Boss told me that if someone has done well, we must praise them) Yup... must praise myself a bit.

I realise I really spent lesser time for sleeping.... ahahahaha~

Sidetrack abit...

Air tickets booked! Yea!! Now super looking forward to my trip. Heeeee~ I hope it won't clash with the meetings... yes... i got meetings & meetings... haiz... 2 meetings next week... with big boss.... don't know how they look like?? Must dress well too... cannot throw face. And also need to tell lao ban niang... i'm on block leave~ Wheeeee~ talking about leave.... I'm SO excited and happy!

Wheeeee~

Peeps peeps! I have read all your taggings... I'm absolutely OK now! Haha~ yea... back to the normal me but became a cold hearted bo chap member only. From then on, after work, go home, bathe, eat, watch tv, and sleep. And that's the daily routine.Wooohhhhh~ I felt that I have no troubles~ it's really good to be a bo chap member! Just that yea... people do think that you are cold hearted.

Updates updates!

Actually wanted to tender my resignation in 2 mths down, but big boss talked to me last Monday and said that there's a new workstream coming up and wanted me to head the new team. I'm shocked! Wah... that means TEAM LEADER leh.... Well, only a day of consideration given and so I decide to give a try since there's an opportunity. Rather than staying in my old team with no prospect. I also don't want to waste my time to send out my resume and wait for interviews etc...

Not easy to start out from NOTHING to SOMETHING. Must really work hard for it. I'm a Kia Su + kia Si person! So I told my current team leader that I need to take a break before I go over to my new team. Haha... my team leader now super headache! Lack of manpower.... plus me taking leave soon.... lolz.... there's one day I saw her thinking hard.... and I asked her what she's thinking... she said " I dunno zhe tiao lu zen me zou xia qu..." I told her the road is straight and just walk lor... if there's turns, follow the turns and walk. She just smiled and say I'm optimistic. Well... that's the fact what. Actually in my heart, I wished to go over to the new team soon! Hahha~

Talking about a break! Yea!!! I want to go for a trip. Still in the midst of planning. Hope to enjoy myself 1st before I buried myself in work. I anticipate stress, work load, meetings, presentations, lunch ins and OTs.... arrgggg.... but if there's a promotion next year.... I dun mind~ Wheeeeee~

Am I really that hatable? Well...

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I'm not afraid of people to write something bad about me in his/her blog! And the above is my bro's blog. And yes.... he wrote something very hurtful and incorrigble stuff about me in his most recent post.







I don't care! In real terms, I don't give it a damn.







But I must say something rightful on my side. I hate defamation!







Sometimes... I do hope that I will not have to meddle in other people's life.... but as a sister, I have to. (Which people may not understand)







Imagine, you know something is strange going.... the whole family don't know and happen that you are the only one who is observant to know what's going on. Hints given, warnings given, nothing was to be changed. At this point of time, who will be the angry one? Do you think that I'm that free to bother with other people stuff? I got my own life too. But if suay suay something BAD happen, who's gonna to cover your backside? Yourself? family? or the last resort ME? I hate to be to the only 'decisor' in the family. Yes! I hate to do thing in a disorderly manner or even without a main structure. I hate things to be done in a draggy manner. I hate hypocrites. I hate to hide my true feelings.







I do understand that people may grow old and will have their own thinking. I was once young before. But not everyone will have the same degree of mentality at that point of time.











Can you imagine someone who has to work next day, talks on the phone throughout the night? Using the PC the whole day & night.... estimated starts at 10pm till next morning 4am? that is 6 whole hrs? Given that telephone bills, internet bills, electricity bills not being paid by the person using. This is not the main issue. And this person gotta have someone to wake him up for work. Not calling once or twice but all those screamings in the morning..... (how will other people who are still lazing in bed for that damn 5 mins feel?) NO PEACE.







Thats not all! How about naggings? Naggings about the bills? Who got the F***ing l $ to pay all those bills?







Yes... you may say you are a grown up (well at least still under 21). You need not to bother about the billing issues. Someone gotta pay for your expenses.... your hp bills even it shot up to a hundred dollars. Bless yourself!







When I was at your age, who pays for me? Even my PC all all those bills, I PAY FOR MYSELF! I don't claim for what I spent on my studies. Do you have the same mindset, mentality, and attitude as me? If you don't have, don't say that you have grown up!







I'm not lamenting that I led a bad life (tho' my life is real bitter). But I guess wouldn't it be better if there's an invention to read people's mind?











Some words even bring said out, the other party may misread or ignore what you are trying to say. Even you have said it explicitly, the chinese so called zhong yan ni er.











Sometimes in life, we are not trying to show off that we are blah blah blah clever, intelligent, expert. We just want to let you know that you are actually subconsciously overestimating yourself.











Who will have tons of $ to spend, to splurge without working for it? you won't feel the heart pinch if you are not using your $ to pay for all these stuff which you are not using. Example, paying for a LV bag that you will not be the one using.

What's more? DS lite? over $300 ... who said to pay half? Did I ask the $ back? Printer.... over $100.... who say needs it for studies? who said to pay half again? Did I ask the $ back? Internet sign on plan.... over $50 per month... who used the internet most? Who said to pay half again and again? Did I ask $ from YOU? Who got the 1st usage of IPOD touch? Who did not taken proper care of the IPOD and caused alot of srcatches? Who accompany you to buy your Prom jacket and paid for you in advance? Who accompany you to buy your xmas shirt? who always help to keep your secrets? who rushes down from work just to accompany you to choose your course to study?

Think through thoroughly!



I'm not defending myself but to reply to this entry:

1st & 2nd paragraph:

Reply: You hate me? Well... I can only say I don't hate you. What's the definition of HATE? I guess I wouldn't use the word HATE on my family members.

hate
–verb (used with object)
1.to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest: to hate the enemy; to hate bigotry.
2.to feel intense dislike, or extreme aversion or hostility. –noun
[Origin: bef. 900; ME hat(i)en, OE hatian (v.); c. D haten, ON hata, Goth hatan, G hassen]

3rd paragraph:

Reply: If you don't want me to poke my nose into your life, then be it. I guess these few days you will notice that I DON'T BOTHER to even talk to you. When time comes, you will realise how much you want a person to POKE their noses into your life. Cos right now, I don't have anyone even my parents.... cos I appeared to be independent and so they thought even I'm out whole night, I must be doing something decent. Hate me again? Be it! My face and attitude irks you? Well... I guess it's your fate.... cos right from the day you are born you gotta face me. Yes... I'm older and is your sister... ride over your head? I guess you used the wrong description. That's the description if you were saying that someone younger rides over the older's head. 19? able to make decisions on your own? Well even I'm 26 this year, and your parents who are going to be in their 50s couldn't make their own decisions, never to say you are just 19. So who is the one who accompany to MDIS to make payment and to give suggestions on what course you are taking. Forgotten? Well... fine! Talking on phone and using PC is fine... but long hours.... and disturbance in other people's sleep? You will never know the torment when other members in the family complains and nag about you and I'm the only one who listens to these on YOUR behalf! Hate me.... pain in the ass.... you never know that you are the pain in other people's ass. Saying the FUCK word. I have repeated what I said without the F word, yet you are ignoring what I have said. Who on earth won't use the word FUCK when you are already so sleepy in the freaking 4am and people kept ignoring your words. And I never use the word FUCK unleass I'm seriously , terribly angry! And bad memory for you! MUM & DAD used the work FUCK on the 'anyone' which you have stated in the entry! And I presumed that you have used that word on 'anyone' too! AS for the fact you have mentioned in your last sentence.... sorry, I don't admit that it is a fact. It's just your assumption.

Last paragraph:

Reply: Both our attitude are wrong! And you are not the only one who got scoldings. Cos when I got it, you are not at home and I was discriminated and despised by our own parents for what I have said and done. Do you know it? NO! Did I say it out? NO! Do I care for it? NO! ANd yes, you don't use the same word back at me, cos if you used the same word, I would have something to defend myself. Did you talked nicely? When I asked you things, who is the one who shouted back at me in an impolite tone? Saying about sick of living.... who will be the one who is really sick of living?

From young, I suffered the most, especially when dad is sick. I gotta take care of the family when dad is in hospital cos i know Mum is unable to hold the family alone. I tell myself to be firm and independent. I must thanks all gods in the universal and people who rendered me in terms of help and force. As a girl, do you think I'm able to endure these throughout my life? No? But I walked through. Sometimes, I really wondered if I'm a girl.

Life gets better when I stepped out in the society to work. I have no regrets as I have fulfilled my parents' wishes to complete my tertiary education. And with determination, I made it to wear the graduation gown and motar board. At least wo dui de qi da jia. As I'm working now, I gotta pay back the Uni fees to Mum and of course the monthly household allowance. I gotta pay for my own bills. I'm glad for myself to be an independent individual but at the same time, I'm hate myself to be too independent. Contradicting? This is FATE.

If I were to leave this family, will it still be a family? If you think you are a grown up, will you be able to hold it firm?